Safe to say my brain has been going a million miles an hour since Saturday.
And of course, being Labor Day weekend (which I have grown to despise since two years ago) ... today was the earliest chance to get into the doctor.
Four full days of obsessive Kristi-brain is not pleasant. That's all I will say about that.
But alas, Tuesday is here and we are officially pregnant. The joy and the fear is all so overwhelming, honestly I have not turned my brain off since I woke up Saturday morning. I have worried my way around every possibility and what type of mountain we could be facing. And my thoughts are so jumbled that I couldn't possibly put it all on paper if my life depended on it.
My emotions are an insane mess. No it's not the hormones. Well, maybe a tiny bit. But mostly its that today is Isaac's 2nd birthday. Quite a day to be all alone at the doctor (James was stuck at work), worrying and wondering about the fate of this new little one. The irony of it all will just slap ya in the face really.
So tonight we will go to the cemetery, and grieve for the child we lost, while we simultaneously rejoice that we now have another.
The whole thing is so mixed up I seriously can not wrap my brain around it.
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